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2005-01-01T16:49:00.000+08:00

Wishing everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR!

A new year, a new beginning. A new beginning, a new blog! Praise God.

As of 1 January 2005, my new blog is www.firedup4Him.blogspot.com

2005....

2004-12-31T19:24:00.000+08:00

Around 4 hours and 30 more minutes before a new year. Haha. With only a few minutes writing this. This is my commitment for 2005:

Let's start off this year well by renewing our love for God and our pledges to Him. I truly belong to him and everything I have is His. I will answer and fufil His calling in 9 years time. Let's remain open to new things and live a live of adventure for Christ. Amen!

2004-12-29T14:40:00.000+08:00

Been rather busy with preparation stuff for the thanksgiving cell group this Friday. Haha. Editing lyrics isn't that easy as it seems to be. And Christmas has come and go. So sad. Now with the festive mood dying down, I realise that its 4 more days before school starts again. Haiz...

The tsunami incident that happened so near to our sunny island is devastating. Killer tsunami. Killing 100,000 people. That's ALOT. Luckily our island was not hit, because of the neighboring countries that are surrounding it. My church sent out a six-person team to help out. This isn't much but we hope it helps. Thank God if not the whole of Singapore would be washed out. But something is definitely not right about this incident. Could Christ's Second Coming be near? This incident seem to fufil the prophecies in the Book of Revelations. Then is the end times now? I pray its not. Because I still want to see millions saved in my future ministry a decade from now. Pray God for protection.

Will update on more of this incident soon. Pray for the survivors/victims and their families ya.

Glorious times over?

2004-12-27T01:59:00.000+08:00

Why must my mood swings happen during this times? It seems that most of the entries nowadays talk about my mood swings. I don't know why, but I seem to have mood swings more frequently than ever before. Is it Satan's attack to me for taking 4 souls from him? Or I am just being too over sensitive to events nowadays? Why do I have to think about all these things? Haiz... I just don't know.

Ouch... I hurt my back and my leg. Yesterday at Suntec, I twisted the veins of my legs and was limping (although people couldn't notice) and recovered after walking for a while. I hurt it again while at City Hall. What on earth is happening to me?

And a few people are in bad mood these few days. I believe I'm at fault. I mean, the way they talked to me means I must have said something wrong or treated them badly. Sorry.

Enough ranting. Although my mood swing is in clearing mode. Today went to JAMs Christmas Big Day! This is my 3rd contact with intellectually disabled children and it seems I do not feel afraid anymore. I am like more open to them. Haha. Which is good. But after the whole thing, I felt very tired. Alot of energy wasted on entertaining them. They're cute!

2004-12-25T20:27:00.000+08:00

First of all, I would like to wish all of you a MERRY CHRISTMAS! Haha. So do I deserve some presents?

Okok. Two days of service at the Singapore Indoor Stadium! Woohoo! Watched the drama two times but its still as funny and touching during the second time. Haha. Went to Orchard on Tuesday and Friday (countdown), fun! Our church singers, musicians (Strikeforce!), breakdancers (yep. we have a breakdancing ministry) and choir are all down at Orchard! Most of the events on stage were hosted and sung by our church and our guest ministry. Friday was crowded with much pushing. Haiyo... didn't know that Singaporeans could party. Haha. Ok. Back to service. Congratulations to Meiyi, Karlong, Cheryl and Dianna for accepting the GREATEST of all gifts. They have decided to take the step and open up the gift they have not opened. Hey guys reading this, if you do not know this gift, it is the gift of salvation. Yup, it is right there before you and what you need to do is to take the step and unwrap this gift. Anyway, welcome to our family!

Tomorrow gotta go to the church building for JAMs Big Day. Haha. Good right? But bad thing is that my kor ps me. He really bad right? Nvm. I shall tell Daddy. =) LOL.

Thoughts...

2004-12-23T01:39:00.000+08:00

Just recovered from a mood swing after listening to one full CD of Praise and Worship from Hillsong United's "More Than Life". I mean, I don't know why I get these mood swings. Is it because of what happened just now? Or is it because the devil is always trying to make life difficult for me everytime when I reach out to friends. I was almost killed after reaching out to my friends during the Ulf Ekman service in SIS. I had a very terrible mood swing that almost led me to commit suicide last Thursday when trying to reach out for the Sentosa Outreach and today, I had a mood swing after my friend, who agreed to come for Christmas services at SIS, said that my church services are too scary. I mean if he wants to back out at the last moment, just say directly.

Am I being too sensitive? Am I overeacting? I don't know. It seems like when my depression attacks, I seem like a student from JAMS. No joke. I just can't control my feelings and emotions when I have depression attacks. It seems like that there's no human that I can trust with my feelings. Yep, not even my parents. They would ask me what for I have mood swings when I do not need to worry about anything. They just don't understand. HAIZ...

Is it Determination?

2004-12-22T23:16:00.000+08:00

Hahaz. Finally change layout! But I shall find a Christmas layout. Hopefully by tomorrow. Yeah. I have been pretty busy this week [PTL!]. Today went with Cecilia to Lifeworks! Activity Centre at Bedok. 6 hours of rehearsal for the JAMS Big Day! I'm not involved but still pretty tired after the whole thing. Find it funny? Haha.

Oh and speaking about JAMS [Jesus for All Minds]. I've decided to join! Yup. When I first saw the intellectually disabled students, I felt that although they were different from us physically and cannot express themselves well, they are still children of God! They have a carefree attitude and are actually cute! I don't know why on earth does the world treat them like aliens! And some go to the extent of calling them "crazy" or even "hopeless"! Well, it isn't even their faults idiots! This society is too class-minded! Go and look at yourself in the mirror. If you call them this, I assure you that they are better than you. Go and repent! Haha. Scolding done.

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I'm busy... FINALLY

2004-12-16T23:46:00.000+08:00

Yay! I finally kept myself busy for these two weeks! Praise the Lord! Haha... after being bored for 6 weeks. I'm damn tired now.

Just now was the Sentosa Outreach (The Incredibles at Sentosa...). It was fun! Something like the Amazing Race. Our team didn't win any prizes... but we won souls for God! Hallelujah! Played till 5 plus then went to MCD till 7 plus. After that took a train to Changi Airport to send Cecilia's dad off. He's going to Laos. Nice, friendly and cheerful man! When I came home, it was already 11? Haha. I'm tired!

Tomorrow going to AMK to help out in JAMS. Then next tuesday going down to Orchard for a Christmas Celebration. Anyone want to come? Then friday and saturday services at SIS... with countdown at Orchard on friday. Sunday gonna help in JAMs again. PTL... I'm packed full but all these are with connection with God!

Releasing my thoughts...

2004-12-15T01:47:00.000+08:00

I mean, there were events I'm supposed to write about that many people would like to know (Like my visit to City Harvest Malaysia and about today's D&D at Swissotel) but I guess I really need to write about my feelings. I'm in a terrible mess now. Nono, not because of the wine I drank. Its a feeling I had since yesterday. Its like, I'm totally bored out. Bored of everything. Even bored of chatting on MSN. I just feel that there's no human around that I can talk to. Its like people is coming to me for advice, but there's no one I can turn to for advice. Maybe Alexcia's right, there are periods where you will feel down. (Nono... don't think dirty. I'm not having mensturation. I'm a boy btw. Haha.) But seriously, I think its the after-effects of this mental problem I have called depression. GuiXiong thinks he has depression. But I guess he changed his view after seeing me. But thanks anyway for really helping me to find my way in God through this problem. Alexcia, Peter and Cecilia too. And especially Bro Jae who helped me snap out of this depression.

The last thing on my mind is something about religion. You can skip this paragraph if you want to. You see, there's a difference between "on-paper" Christians and "true" Christians. Look, true Christianity isn't a religion, its a personal relationship with God. I have an aunt who baptised as a Christian, but she's what I classify as an "on-paper" Christian. The identity papers classify her as a Christian under religion, but she's not. She's not kingdom minded at all. Rather, she's society and status-minded. I mean Christians aren't supposed to hold joss-sticks at any gathering. But she scolded a Christian so severely last time for not holding. And she follows my mom to temple to pray to other gods. In the Bible, these gods aren't gods! They're satan in disguise! And she's a Christian! And during the visit to City Harvest Malaysia, she criticised the church so openly. And said something like, "the pastor said he scolded people, means we must scold people always too". Its part of discipleship! Scolding people for something they did wrong means you care. And during the praise and worship, she laughed alot and made funny actions. Imagine a Christian laughing at a church event! They're your brothers and sisters! She also lies alot, and uses me in lying. She said to be able to make money, you got to lie. C'mon. Look at our church's businessmen and businesswomen. Do they lie? Cheat? Steal? Do un-Christian things? NO! And they could be so successful that for example, Sis Elim Chew (77th Street founder) could be the top Businesswoman of the Year!

I guess she's going to stop me from being a pastor. But like how pastor Kong did. His uncle begged him, on his knees even, not to be a pastor. Because it would be a disgrace to family. Pastor Kong continued to be a pastor because God told him to do be a pastor. Always remember that God's ways are higher than the ways of man. And now, he's impacting millions of people in Asia and the world, and is famous throughout Asia as a dynamic preacher of faith. And his uncle? Having a broken marriage and business now. See the difference? God also told me to be a pastor and I guess I'm going to have alot of barriers. Satan, you're not overcoming me! God will love and protect me throughout!

Anyway guess I shall stop writing. Its a damn long entry today. If you've read through the end, thanks alot for reading my thoughts. Anything to comment, just comment on the tag-board. I would really appreciate that. Have a good day/night and God bless you.

Feeling Better Now...

2004-12-14T01:27:00.000+08:00

Hmmm thanks to alot of people (Cecilia jie, Guixiong kor, Bro Jae, Peter and Alexcia)... Im finally over it! PTL! But entry stays coz I want to keep my memories.

2004-12-13T23:09:00.000+08:00

There's no one I can turn to. I just want to end my life now. Satan's like throwing every attack at me at the same time. Cecilia told me to read a verse. It dosen't seem to help. I don't know. It seems like there's no one I can turn to at all. Alot of people turn to me for help. I help them to solve their problems. But I can't even solve mine. I'm a useless idiot. I just want to end my life now. NOW!

In Times Square, KL

2004-12-11T11:43:00.000+08:00

Seems like I can find time to go online and update my blog. Hehez. I'm now at a hair saloon in Times Square in KL, Malaysia. And please, Singapore is not part of Malaysia or China. We're independant since 1965. LOL.

Did nothing much though. Morning went to Petronas Tower to queue up for tickets to the Skybridge. Going later at 2.45 pm. Queued for two hours. Now finally found a queue worst than the one at church. HAHAHA. No offence la. Then after that going to Klang (another place in Malaysia) through train to eat the Ba Kut Teh. Heard its nice. Channel U got go there once for a special feature. Then going to City Harvest Malaysia. I'm damn excited lor. Hahaz. Pastor Kevin Loo's church and one of the 15 branches of City Harvest Church Singapore. Goody.

Then the stupid kor of mine haven call up my friends regarding tomorrow. In the end had to waste money to call them up. Haiyo. Lucky now login MSN can talk more. But he's busy lor. So like maybe too harsh on him. Haha. Sorry kor. Nothing from here. Im ringgit-broke. =)

KKz. I shall end here. And final word: I MISS YOU GUYS ALOT!

Cya and buaiz.

At KLCC, Malaysia

2004-12-10T18:56:00.000+08:00

Here I am in KL, Malaysia after a 5-6 hour drive from Singapore, Singapore. Haha. I am typing this on the bed, facing a fantastic view of the Petronas Twin Tower and many other buildings in the Golden Triangle. But I still miss cell group. Boohoo. I’m terribly tired and haiz... Will try my best to make the best out of this trip. Haha. Lunch was great. Now waiting for my dad to wake (he has been driving and he’s tired. UNDERSTAND THAT.) Haha. Then can go out. Sunday I’m going to City Harvest Malaysia. Yay! Excited like dunno what. Lols. Hey, the sun’s setting. Let me enjoy the view as I end off here. See you on Thursday!Here I am in KL, Malaysia after a 5-6 hour drive from Singapore, Singapore. Haha. I am typing this on the bed, facing a fantastic view of the Petronas Twin Tower and many other buildings in the Golden Triangle. But I still miss cell group. Boohoo. I’m terribly tired and haiz... Will try my best to make the best out of this trip. Haha. Lunch was great. Now waiting for my dad to wake (he has been driving and he’s tired. UNDERSTAND THAT.) Haha. Then can go out. Sunday I’m going to City Harvest Malaysia. Yay! Excited like dunno what. Lols. Hey, the sun’s setting. Let me enjoy the view as I end off here. See you on Thursday!

Must miss me!

2004-12-10T01:50:00.000+08:00

Sigh... Going to Malaysia in about 4 hours time. Yeah. I know the correct behavior is to feel excited. But sigh... I'm missing a full week of cell group and service again. And this is one of the last few cell group meetings of the year. This is the last entry I will write before leaving Haha. Okay. Now charging my laptop. For like the second time today. It's my one and only chance of NOT missing you all. Wahahahax. Hmmm... So now what's left is a few reminders for some people:

Chiuwen, Guoxiang and Sharon: Please confirm whether you are able to make it for cell group meeting and/or service with Guixiong by this Friday.
GuiXiong Kor: See above. Remind them. Thanks alot bro. Also forget about the event.
Cecilia Jie: Confirm with Sharon bah. Try to make her feel integrated ya. Thanks sis.
Alexcia: Don't think so much le. Carry on with life ya. There are many more guys out there for you.

And for the rest of you, take care bah. Byee.

2004-12-09T16:59:00.000+08:00

Quote from Yiwen's blog:
"really like going out with the cell members... every time an outing with them nv fails to profits me spiritually and metally."

Haha. That's abit lame but its true. Went out with cg members after prayer meeting yesterday and they really brighten up my day! Especially John. Who was making a fool of himself in public. He sang so loud in public until everyone was looking at him. We pretended not to know him. Haha. Then I suggested we go Orchard Road, then John walked in front. Then I signalled the others to walk the other direction. Haha. That's lame.

Today had makeup cell group meeting. Went with Carrie to E267/E344 CGM. She was sick and is still going to China. Haiyo. Speaking of E267/E344, they were mostly younger people. Unlike our cell group where almost everyone is in upper secondary and JC/Poly. Their games were more fun and they had more outings than us. But I still like my cell group. Close bonds with all my cell group members. Haha.

Hmmm. Just finished packing my luggage. This may be my 2nd last entry before going to Malaysia. I'm reluctant to go because I'll miss the CG. Boohoo. But just try to make the best out of it right? Haha. But best thing is I'm visiting City Harvest Church Malaysia (one of our branch churches)! So maybe I'll scribble an entry later. So cya.

Bad FIRST IMPRESSION

2004-12-08T01:25:00.000+08:00

Did nothing yesterday. Only chat on MSN lor. Bored mah. But the conversation really very interesting. Hehe. Today went out with GuiXiong kor and Alexcia. So boring. I'm the one doing the most talking while kor was giggling. So shy hor. Alexcia didn't sleep yesterday so she was in a pretty bad mood. Haha. But fun to talk to. In the end, they managed to talk abit. Alexcia asked why he kept giggling, then kor answered don't know in Chinese. Like what Alexcia said in her blog, it was a silent conversation at BK. Damn funny. Especially this bro of mine. But shan't elaborate on it because it would get abit *ahem* if I do so.

Hmmm. Tomorrow basically nothing much as well. Prayer meeting at 1 pm. Abit too early bah Cecilia jie? I usually wake up at 2 pm during the hols one. Then have to go over to Amanda's house. Haha. Okay. I shall stop here. Abit broken English. But tired mah. Brain's not functioning well. So cya.

Blessed Sunday!

2004-12-05T22:18:00.000+08:00

Came back from church around 7 plus. Quite late le. Keke. Attended two services (one English and one Mandarin) today. Truly blessed by the services! Great news! Trinity Broadcasting Network wants to broadcast City Harvest Church services LIVE! during the month of August 2004! Delirious? (UK's leading Praise and Worship band) will be leading praise and worship for City Harvest Church too during that month! A guest speaker, Pastor Zhang, came and speak in the Mandarin service today. He cracked a few jokes. But to be honest, I can't understand most of what he's saying because I suck at Chinese. LOLX. Nvm. Shall try to improve. Bible Study class in between. Lesson 4 about Salvation through the Holy Spirit. Impactful!

After church went back home and I could catch the Graduation Service of the School of Theology Live! Pastor Kong says it is broadcasted to television networks all over Asia. Wow! I truly feel lucky that I am in a fun-loving church who aren't religious people but people who are truly on fire for God! So catch me at School of Theology in 6-8 years time. Hallelujah!

P/S: Congratulations to Xiao Ting and Cecilia who got their Certificate of Christian Foundation today!

Reach out with Love...

2004-12-05T09:00:00.000+08:00

Hmm. Sudden urge to blog. Haha. Going to church soon and this is the first I time (I think) that I blogged so early in the morning. LOL.

Had only 4 hours of sleep because of MSN conversations yesterday. The people there simply did not allow me to sleep! I look like a panda now. Boohoo. And Alexcia, relax girl! Take the step, don't be nervous. Sorry can't tell the rest of you what is on. Hehe.

Hmmm. Okay its 9.05 am. I'm tired and sleepy and will be ranting all the way in the church bus. Clever eh? Haha. Oh and I will be changing blog designs soon. This blog design is abit cramped. But I still can't let go of the picture. It's nice. Yeah. Nice!

Okay. 9.10 am. Gotta go le. Cya!

2004-12-03T22:35:00.000+08:00

For the whole of today, I have officially done nothing. Haha. I don't feel like going out at all. Don't ask me why. I'm just lazy. Oh and I cut my hair. Yesterday at Chapter 2 in Bugis. Then went to Bugis Junction with my cousin Amanda. Then saw my friend and her friend almost at the same time. Then uh-oh, they thought we were *ahem*. I had a good time explaining to my friend. Haha.

Okay. From today on till the end of the hols I have decided to continue working on my website. For fun? Lol. Its at http://bluespots.shyper.com by the way. So cya soon.

God is truly the same yesterday, today and forevermore...

2004-12-02T01:03:00.000+08:00

Great night! Just came back from the second and last part of the "How Shall We Live?" Bible Seminar! I am truly blessed by the message. Today we learnt some of the Bible verses Antinomians use in their belief system. But they only take one verse and use that to say that the Law isn't needed now. But read further ahead and you'll see that the apostle Paul say "certainly not!" This phrase in the Bible when used dosen't refer to how an Englishman would say it (to mean that its not true in a polite way). NO! Certainly not is the strongest word ever used in Greek. So you could imagine that it is really CERTAINLY NOT. So let's go against antinomianism strongly! But not by force, but by love. Hallelujah!

And guess what? Taufik won in Singapore Idol!!!

Thanks for praying!

2004-11-30T14:48:00.000+08:00

First off, I would like to thank all those who prayed for me when I'm sick. Especially Amber. Who got my blog from an unknown source. How wonderful is the network of bloggers. Thanks a bunch guys. Rightee.

So to announce: I'm BACK BACK BACK and more hyper than ever!

Okay. I forgot what I'm going to say. Oh. Rightee. My blog's registered with Globe of Blogs, together with 18,001 other blogs. Show off. Hahaha. But seriously, if you ever want to suscribe to my blog to hear my lame posts or rantings, you can! Because mine is registered with Feedburner. Only I can't solve this problem of promoting. So wait. Patience.

Just feel that my blog's getting wackier and wackier each day. Which is good. So with the Blogger team. They're a great bunch of guys who can make my day worse (technical errors!), or make it better (crappy stories at www.blogger.com/knowledge).

Oh let me see. That's all for today. Cya!

I need a MIRACLE...

2004-11-27T20:51:00.000+08:00

This stupid fever just can't go down. Went to see the doctor today. He suspected viral infection. And I can't go to church tomorrow. Haiz... I really need to pray for a miracle that I would be okay and be able to go for service.

I'm sick.

2004-11-26T22:35:00.000+08:00

Fever, body aches and a terrible sorethroat. Yeah, that was in the afternoon and my fever went down after my mom forced liquids and tablets of different colors down my throat. Haha. Today's get-sick day. Everyone seems like they're sick.

Oh, and today's Guixiong kor kor's birthday. Some group of friends (BHS I think) went down to his house and celebrate his birthday, while I am here being sick. And I remembered him very clearly because he still owes me four dollars! Haha. That stupid kor kor.

Just watched the City Harvest Church Live! Service. Wow, Rev. Robb Thompson was great! He produced an Apple iBook on the pullpit. First time I saw a pastor with a laptop on the pullpit. Its funny. And he gave away free CDs and books! Wow... Sunday must go! He will be preaching a total of 42 principles on "Winning in Life" over 6 services, which makes 7 principles per service. He's a great man of God. And before he came in, an African singer led the whole church into dancing. He's cool and funky. Some people may now be thinking: That's church? LOL!

I was really bored in the afternoon, so decided to translate this blog into Chinese. Check it out at http://bluespots-chi.blogspot.com. Alot is broken and the names are funny, because its a direct translation and I'm lazy to edit. Maybe next time. Cya.

Against Antinomianism!

2004-11-25T13:52:00.000+08:00

Attended the "How Shall We Live" Bible Seminar yesterday. It was a 3 hour long seminar with a 20-minute break. Although it is quite difficult with big, theological words like "antinomianism", "gnostic spiritualism" and "libertinism", it was still an impactful seminar. There was a 4-page notes outline full of historic texts like "The doctrines of Marcion" and "The Antinomian Controversy of 1636-1638". Sounds like history. Haha.

Waiting for the 2nd and last session next week. Meanwhile, let's go against the Antinomians!

Shutter Two Times In A Row...

2004-11-24T01:52:00.000+08:00

LOL... Went out with Chiuwen, Cecilia and Yiwen to watch Shutter (again!). Yar, just watched yesterday. So surprised that the girls didn't scream. Partly because Yiwen was looking down during the scary part. But the second time watching is actually scarier that the first time. Haha. Before that we went to eat MCD take neoprint. Cecilia's face was covered by the panda decoration. Ha! Then went to arcade and play. Play lame games like the racing game. Then I keep on hitting Cecilia's car. I won in the end. But second time gave chance to her. Must thank me leh.

Tomorrow got the "How Shall We Live" bible study seminar. So exciting. Tomorrow after seminar than tell you. Cya.

It's All Part of Discipleship...

2004-11-23T01:58:00.000+08:00

Okay. Just a quick note to Guixiong: Maybe I was too harsh on you. Sorry. But please remember what I told you. K? :)

Haha. Today was not really that boring. Went out with Xiong Sheng and his bro's friend Aaron. Watched Shutter. He's crappy. As with most of the people I know (me included). Haha. Shutter was a fresh new photo, oops... movie. Different from Korean/Japan horror movies. Tomorrow going to watch with Cecilia, Chiuwen and Yiwen again. Its nice mah. And I wanna hear how the 3 girls scream. LOL!

My blog design very nice right? Haha. Anyway, the tag board is still here and to tag, scroll down to the very last part of the "Links" section. You'll see it. But the best is to post a comment (see there's "Comments" below each entry). Can? LOL!

Wednesday got Bible study conference. So excited! Haha. I'm not booked on Thursday or Friday, anyone want to go out?

New Template, New Beginning and a Whole New Walk with God...

2004-11-22T01:14:00.000+08:00

Hallelujah! Finally got a new layout, thanks to blogskins.com! Yup, its a Christian layout, which symbolises a new beginning and a whole new walk with God! This Bible verse from the Book of Psalms is powerful. Because I "fear no evil" because I have God with me! So enjoy and may God bless!

I'm trusting the Lord...

2004-11-21T21:19:00.000+08:00

Wow... I'm really anxious. Tomorrow I am going to know which class I am in. I chose POA because of the subject combination. It has the subjects which I can cope with. But, I'll trust in the Lord that I will definitely go to POA. Because I can do all things through Him. And yep, I'm still confident.

Today's sermon in church was powerful and impactful. The topic was "Can We Have Faith For This Every Weekend?". It is about the 7 steps of faith. The "Every Weekend" refers to a scenario like the Weekend Services at the Singapore Indoor Stadium. We need to pray for a bigger building ya. Our church, although is the largest church building in Southeast Asia, is still far too small for us. The Singapore Indoor Stadium is also small for us. Some people may think that we are crazy, because the Singapore Indoor Stadium is very big. Yes, but last weekend, 150 people had to be turned away because there wasn't any space! We need to pray for a new 10,000 seater hall. Remember, all things can be done through Him through faith.

7 Steps of Faith
1) Desire
2) Decision
3) Asking (Praying)
4) Receiving
5) Speaking
6) Seeing
7) Acting

Haha. And now the best part of the day. THE CONFIRMATION HAS ARRIVED! HALLELUJAH!

From the Post on: Sunday, November 14, 2004

"The Calling. MY CALLING!"
2nd Carnival by the Bay service today! I am so on fire for God even though Pst. Ulf's sermon was quite boring (not as interesting as Pst. Kong's) But he took the heart to come to Singapore, so must be grateful. Haha.But during prayer when Pst. Ulf was annointing Sun and Pst. Kong, it felt like God talked to me during that prayer. He said, "In 10 years time, you will build a church in the east side of Singapore for the Eastern and Central side of Singapore and shall name it whatever you wish to. Then 2 years after the building, you will attend the Pastor's Course." This shocked me. Never have God's wish been so detailed and exact. But, like what Pst. Ulf said in his Saturday sermon, this is MY CALLING! Hallelujah!

Cecilia said that I need a confirmation and here it is. Arrived. In 10 years, I'll pastor a church by faith! Today Pastor Kong received a prophetic word and asked us to write our desires on the offering envelope. He said that in 5, 10 years time we will definitely fufill our desires. By faith, I shall see this calling answered. Hallelujah!

SINGAPORE IDOL BEAUTY CONTEST ARH?

2004-11-19T20:58:00.000+08:00

Wah... That's why tell you this week really bad week. OLI OUT! WHY? Singaporeans are a bunch of idiots who follow LOOKS in a SINGING competition. There are competition for LOOKS. Why don't S** go join that? Next week still voting, but definitely NOT S**. I DON WANT TO SEE HIM WIN. WO BU SHUANG SO WAD? WAD U THINK SINGAPORE IDOL IS? I'LL VOTE FOR TAUFIK 5 TIMES. Hmmph!

New mobile phone... Grandmom got hospitalised...

2004-11-19T17:40:00.000+08:00

Okay. Many things, good and bad, happened this week. (Including the two which happened on Mon & Tue)

My grandmother got hospitalised! I think it was severe cough but now today my aunt called me and said that she had a lump on her leg. Think its an effect of diabetes. She's too stubborn to listen to our warnings of not eating unhealthy food or drink. But, still, hope (and pray) she's alright.

Now, for the good thing. I got a new handphone! Haha. Used this phone for 4 months plus, the longest I've ever used. Now change to Sony Ericsson T630. Better color, better camera and better games! And its free! Someone gave it to me in exchange to my Nokia 6820. Haha. When I checked the M1Shop (www.m1shop.com.sg), T630 was selling for $688 (2 yr plan) and $888 (retail). Wow... cool deal! LOL! 6820 was only like $150 with a 2 yr plan? Hahaz. But the person wanted a Nokia and she cannot type fast... so the full keyboard in the 6820 will definitely help her.

So let's hope that cell group and service will be better this weekend. Cya and God bless.

Can You Feel the Power of Love?

2004-11-18T21:24:00.000+08:00

This is a church song "Can You Feel the Power of Love" sung during the service at National Stadium. LOL. Its damn nice. And dosen't really sound like a church song. Haha.

Can You Feel the Power of Love
By: City Harvest Church Singapore

Can you feel the power of love? (X2)
Can you feel it (X2)
Can you feel the power of love? (X4)
Can you feel it (X2)
(Repeat)

At the sound of the trumpet,
We will march forth!
We His army will rise!
Whatever it takes,
Whatever the cost.
Our city belongs to Jesus!

People arise!
People stand up!
Now is the time...
Whatever it takes,
Whatever the cost.
Our city belongs to Jesus!
People arise
People stand up!

Chorus:
Now is the time... (X2)
To HARVEST!

(Repeat Whole Song)

Over It

2004-11-18T14:02:00.000+08:00

Hey... Surprised that I did not update for 3 days! Haha... I'm pretty much over about the incident that happened on Monday. Life has to gets on. Right? Maybe I do need to make some changes.

Oh ya. The Sec 3 (2004) PIZ (CHC-JYSS Christian Outreach Group) are very active in reaching out to the lost. They even held a chalet today. Honestly, I feel jealous that they have so many members. But God will definitely rise up the Sec 2s! I don't know what's going on with the Sec 2s (my level, 2004). But by next year, a Sec 1, 2 and 3 (2005) prayer group should be up and ready. Since there have been a slight increase from the Special Weekend Service at Singapore Indoor Stadium, then Praise God! Oh, and speaking of the service there. Many Christians whom I know from other churches think that we are crazy to waste so much money as the Singapore Indoor Stadium is so BIG and we won't be able to use up the seats. BUT PRAISE GOD! THE SEATS FOR THE TWO SERVICES ARE SO FULL THAT 150 PEOPLE HAVE TO BE TURNED AWAY FOR ONE SERVICE! HALLELUJAH! Also very proud of those who have accepted Christ during the services, whether Sec 1, 2, 3 or 4. Welcome to the Kingdom of God!

Sad. Crying.

2004-11-16T01:24:00.000+08:00

I tell you. I am not embarassed to admit that I am crying now. Something bad just happened. Really bad. I almost got killed. Almost got killed, by my mom. I'm not joking or lying, its true. She's okay now. But I'm really shaken by the whole incident. It was partly my fault and I really feel guilty. I would really like to thank Sister Meiyan for comforting me.

Seems like I have to arrange my priorities. It used to be:
God Church Family Friends Education
Now it is:
God Family Church Friends Education

I have already prayed about this priority. Because I really cannot put church before family. There are too many things happening in my family and I am feeling so stressed out. But the church here dosent mean worshipping God, its about my brothers and sisters in church and other church activities. Maybe alot of Bible seminars I cannot attend, but God is still before everything! I love Him too much to let Him go. But I love church too. But I cannot cling on too much on church. I have to change priorities. Sorry.

The Calling. MY CALLING!

2004-11-14T19:55:00.000+08:00

2nd Carnival by the Bay service today! I am so on fire for God even though Pst. Ulf's sermon was quite boring (not as interesting as Pst. Kong's) But he took the heart to come to Singapore, so must be grateful. Haha.

But during prayer when Pst. Ulf was annointing Sun and Pst. Kong, it felt like God talked to me during that prayer. He said, "In 10 years time, you will build a church in the east side of Singapore for the Eastern and Central side of Singapore and shall name it whatever you wish to. Then 2 years after the building, you will attend the Pastor's Course." This shocked me. Never have God's wish been so detailed and exact. But, like what Pst. Ulf said in his Saturday sermon, this is MY CALLING! Hallelujah!

Powerful. Impactful. BIG

2004-11-14T01:43:00.000+08:00

First Carnival by the Bay service today. Attending the second one tomorrow. The service is powerful and impactful! The whole Singapore Indoor Stadium was occupied by City Harvest Church. We rented the whole space, yup, including the open field! The open field was used for a carnival (think rock climbing or Escape-style rides!). But too bad we got no chance to play today because of rain. Yup, heavy rain. So I have to pray for no rain tomorrow!

Oh and invited Guoxiang and Chiuwen to church. Guoxiang accepted Christ! Hallelujah! Then Chiuwen is coming again tomorrow. I have full faith that she will accept Christ tomorrow! Praise God!

See ya tomorrow!

1 More Day to Carnival by the Bay...

2004-11-12T20:24:00.000+08:00

Haha. Just came back from my cousin's house. Stayed there for two days. Tomorrow is the beginning best services of the year: The Carnival by the Bay! Hallelujah! Sure to see lots of Junyuan Sec people tomorrow! Haha.

1N2 Girl: Who are you???? Its not interesting to have anon. people here you know. Olinda rocks! Sly rocks too when he's singing Chinese. Taufik is okay. He's too emotional.
Alexicia: Link me ok? Then I'll link you. Thanks for supporting Olinda and how's Japan? En
Xuan Hui: Heyhey. Ok Sly was nice for Jay Chou's one. Better than Jay Chou. I admit. Hahaz.
John: Hey brother! Haha!

Daphne out! God bless her!

4 Days to Celebration By the Bay

2004-11-10T21:16:00.000+08:00

Singapore's safe? You wish. Read from the newspapers today (yes, I DO read the newspapers) that a customer of a bank was taken hostage. The choice of weapon was a replica gun. Ok, its safer than in most countries. But the gun looks real enough for a CISCO security officer to shoot the man. Courageous guard. Which they're supposed to be. =P

Anyway, holidays are really boring. Spend most of the days on MSN and doing my website. Because Jasper has not returned me my games yet. Jasper, if you're reading this, better return me my games or else! X( Haha. Also spent most of my time bullying Guixiong on MSN with two of my other friends. Serves him right for bullying me in the first place. Blahx.

Guess nothing much to say. Anyway, remind me to wake that stupid kor kor of mine up at 10 for prayer meeting. Cya...

Happy Bdae Dad!

2004-11-09T20:51:00.000+08:00

At such short notice, I got to know that my Dad's birthday is today. Call me unfilal or slow, but he really did not tell me. He wants to keep his birthday low key, so even my grandparents do not know! Haha...

Countdown: 6 Days to Celebration By the Bay

2004-11-08T17:27:00.000+08:00

Wow... I cannot believe that I wrote last night's blog entry. It was because of Guixiong (he was on great fire for God as the Holy Spirit annointed him yesterday after his prayer focus) that it spread to me and I just wrote. Just wrote what the Holy Spirit told me to write. Hallelujah! I'm on fire for the living God!

Now the fire still burns in me greatly and it will never burn out!

Haha, anyway there's still 6 more days to a great event!Yes its the Celebration By the Bay organised by City Harvest Church. There's a funfair at the open space in Singapore Indoor Stadium. Think Escape theme park, in the lines of ferris wheels and roller coasters. We're probably the first church in Singapore to organise such an event. And the service at Singapore Indoor Stadium's audiotarium is greater. We have a great speaker/preacher/apostle with us: Reverend Dr. Ulf Ekman! Haha! I am excited!

On Fire for the Living God!

2004-11-08T01:42:00.000+08:00

On Fire For A Living God
Love this title alot! Yup, what Pastor Kong said is true, if you worship the Lord with all your heart, all your soul and all your mind, you go around with an "aura". An aura of peace and holiness. The message Pastor Kong preached today was so powerful that I am impacted by the message. I'm ON FIRE FOR THE LIVING GOD! Hallelujah! Pastor Kong preached about releasing worship in the House of God and Your Lives. After his preaching, the praise and worship atmosphere was totally different, renewed. I jumped like I never did before and shouted till I had a sore throat after the service. What can I say? I'm ON FIRE FOR A LIVING GOD! Hallelujah!Some people even danced because we're ON FIRE FOR A LIVING GOD! Haha... I must be saying this word alot of times. Guixiong impacted me greatly too and turned the fire on another level! He was annointed by the Spirit during prayer focus and is suddenly talking to me about God and Jesus.

Friends, if you wanna know why I'm excited for Jesus...
Friends, Jesus died for YOU. Yes, for you. He willingly hung Himself on the cross so that He could bear our sins upon Himself. Meaning, He took away our sins from us and put it on Himself. Can you imagine the burden. Some of you may think that you do not need God because you have done alot of good deeds in your life, then rethink. These good deeds cannot cover up, and will never cover up, for your sins. Even telling a white lie is a sin. Jesus used his blood to cover for our sins. No one comes to God except through His Son, Jesus Christ. The consequences of not having Jesus in your life is eternal punishment in the lake of everlasting fire. Not perish but you'll be tormented eternally. But if you accept Him as your Lord and Saviour, you will enjoy eternal life in Heaven, worshipping the Lord your God with all glory. If you are ready to receive Him as Lord and Savior, say this prayer:

Dear Lord Jesus,
I am willing to accept you as my Lord and Saviour. You died for me on the Cross and used your blood to cover for my sins. I love you with all my heart, all my soul and all my mind. I pray this in Your Holy name, Amen.

If you have said this prayer, please send me an email at info@bluespots.shyper.com or tag at my tag-board with a return (working) email so I can send important instructions to you. Congratulations on accepting Him! Next thing is to join a local church. Church is not that boring place where you sing hymns or hear a montonous pastor talking, it is the atmosphere, the spirit of a Living God. Some churches which I know of for you to join are:

Lighthouse Evangelism
- 1 TAMPINES STREET 82 SINGAPORE 528985 TEL: (65)67881323 FAX: (65)6788260381 & WOODLANDS CIRCLE SINGAPORE 738909 TEL: (65)63636776 FAX: (65)63635775
Website (for service times): www.lighthouse.org.sg
Hope Of God International (Singapore)
- The Nexus Auditorium #05-07 Cuppage Plaza 5 Koek Road Singapore 228796
Website: www.hopesingapore.org.sg
City Harvest Church Singapore (Church I'm attending)
- 1 Jurong West Street 91 Singapore 649041 Tel: 6795 7789
Website: www.chc.org.sg

Enjoy your new walk with God.

In His Majestic Service,
Brother Ashley

Written by the Holy Spirit through Ashley.

Back...

2004-11-07T01:51:00.000+08:00

Okay, I admit. I faked the entry time and date for the previous entry. I wrote that entry right before writing this entry. :P Haha...

Back from dinner at Neptune. It was a association's dinner. It was cheap. I'll not elaborate. But alot of people there were drunk and acting like children. Haiz... And they had a strip show. Knowing my Christian values, I did not watch the show at all. Thank God they announced before starting. Amen.

After that, in the car, received a message from John telling me that the carnival is back on again. Praise God! Let's pray for no rain ok?

Then went to eat Wanton Noodles at Joo Chiat. Now you know why its cheap. :P

Ok... That's all for today. Got to sleep now. Got church tomorrow. :P

How I Love To Sing About You...

2004-11-06T18:15:00.000+08:00

Today's a better day than yesterday. God has really lots of surprises in His hands. Haha... Had cell group meeting today. Message was about how the Apostle, Paul, had an encounter with God. But the important point was not what he did during the encounter, rather, what he did after the encounter. After cell group meeting, Sis Meiyan told us our roles in the cell group. Was quite sad that I don't have any roles, but God told me not to worry, because He has prepared something greater for me than all this posts and all I do is to wait. So now, let me put what I learn into my life. Let's see what I'll do to wait. Just like the Apostle Paul. After the encounter, he did not received the term "Apostle" overnight, instead it took him weeks. I'll do something worthwhile for Him while I wait. Amen.

Yesterday was terrible...

2004-11-06T13:23:00.000+08:00

Had a terrible day yesterday. First heard from Stephen that the family carnival was cancelled. I thought he was just pulling my leg until I confirmed with Sister Meiyan. Oh my God! It IS cancelled! :( At least still got the Big Day with Rev. Ulf Ekman. That's comforting enough for me. But what about the new friends. I'm lucky that I haven't told them about this carnival, if not I don't think they would come. But I'll pray. Yup, pray to ensure that my friends will come and the carnival will be back up again.

Second my computer was affected with this stupid virus someone sent me. Then I had to reformat and install Windows XP again. Haiz... All my files gone. Stupid!

Third, Leandra's out! And Olinda's gonna be out as well. Why, because SINGAPORE DOES NOT KNOW HOW TO VOTE FOR TALENT, THEY VOTE FOR LOOKS. Singapore, open your eyes and look at the TV screen. Sly is one of the worse ok. I asked some Sly fans and they say that they vote for him becoz he is handsome. Nonsense. 2 Idol finalists has been voted out because of this STINGYNESS. SINGAPORE, EVEN HOST GURMIT HAS SAID THAT WE MUST VOTE FOR TALENT. Sly has that bad pronounciation problem ok. He can't sing well.

HMMPH!!!

Like My Own

2004-11-04T21:24:00.000+08:00

I should praise the scriptwriters for creating such a touching drama serial called Like My Own. Its on Channel 5 at Thursdays 9.00 pm.Like My Own is a heartwarming story about a mother's love for kids who aren’t her own and the sacrifices that she’s willing to make in order to protect them. After numerous visit to see her kid, Zhi En's mother gradually develops feelings for Wei Jun and perpetually clings on to him. She threatens to commit suicide when Wei Jun ignores her. Xiao Cai thinks that his father causes him to be in this pathetic plight and refuses to visit him for the last time.

Oh, and sorry for not updating these 2 days. A virus attacked my computer again. Hahaz... One of my kor kor is very easy to bully. You should know who you are. :P

Went for prayer meet today at 3-5. Hopefully every prayer will be answered because God says that what we pray for will be answered. Hallelujah! After meet, John went to my place today and he was updating his blog. But he couldn't update because of the virus. LOL :D

Yesterday went to one of my cell group member's grandad's funeral. It was very dark and glommy there, so I stayed for a while only. After that went to my aunt's office at Raffles Place and wow, security is tight! After that, went with her to eat beef kway teow. Then went home. Nothing much happened.

Unlimited Time... 2 months?

2004-11-02T15:37:00.000+08:00

I'm B-O-R-E-D. There's no holiday mood for me this time. I really don't know why. I'm spending the day lazing around with nothing to do and with constant nagging from my mom to get my butt of the computer chair and start doing something else. Haha... Honestly I don't know what to do to fill this 2 months. If anyone ask me what area of secondary school life do I hate most now, I would say its the hols. Execept for church services, the coming Celebration by the Bay and the Penang/KL trip, there is really nothing to do. Some people tell me to get a job (my mom), but I really do not want to get one. I don't seem to be in love with money as much as I did during the time I was not a Christian yet. I want something that could make my Creator proud of me. I want to do something for Him. Join a ministry? But alot of ministries require you to complete a certain level of Bible Study. I am only starting Level 1 on Sunday! Organise evangelist campaigns? Sure, I would love to. But I don't have the money and there are also age restrictions in certain countries. Any other suggestions?

How I wish that I could be a pastor of my church now. I like to lead a church through preaching. I like to give altar calls. I feel that God wants me to do this. All the while, He has been guiding me to this path and I will answer the call to be a pastor. I am willing, like Pastor Kong, to lay my whole life down (literally meaning to serve Him full-time) on the altar for Him. This is the greatest sacrifice and I am willing to do it!

Haha... I'm B-O-R-E-D and its only 4 in the afternoon. But I'm bored. :(

ashleybspots

B-O-R-E-D

Just here to Pray...

2004-11-02T13:36:00.000+08:00

Our Father in Heaven:

You have promised that you make all things new and will grant us whatever we pray for. Here I pray for my fellow brothers and sisters and for those who I am going to invite to church. O Lord, give me the courage to ask. I want to see them in the audiotarium, receiving salvation, reciting the Prayer of Salvation and accepting Jesus into their lives. Lord, please give me the courage. I love you with all my heart, all my soul and all my mind. I pray this in Your name, Amen.

Holidays ARE boring...

2004-11-01T23:14:00.000+08:00

Everyone's calling me to go watch "The Grudge". Just watched it on Friday. Anyway, maybe I'm going to watch the movie again. Besides, I really got nothing to do at home. Haiz...

Anyway, I think I owe some people an explanation for not updating my blog. Well, my computer was infected with ad-ware and that damn ad-ware blocked my text box. Now, after reformatting my computer and losing my data, I'm back. Hehe...

This week's service was powerful and impactful! Hallelujah! Pastor Kong talked about the 5 keys of worship and I can tell you, everyone was annointed by the power of the Lord. During the altar call, almost everyone, if not everyone, was kneeling. And I could see tears streaming down the faces of some people. It was really touching!

HOLIDAYS ARE BORING... Let me repeat again! 2 months of hols and what can I do except for going out and wasting all my money? Church is a per week basis and I'm only going to other countries for a week. Can anyone give me any suggestions (don't ask me to work please)? Haha...

Oh, and the Big Day is coming! I'm inviting lots of people. Trying my best at least, right Jae? Haha... For those who I have asked (or going to ask). Here are the details:

"Celebration by the Bay at Singapore Indoor Stadium"
Organised by City Harvest Church

- Fun-filled Carnival- featuring an exciting variety of rides and booths
- Sat (13/11) 3pm-7pm and 8.30pm-11pm
- Sun (14/11) 11am-6pm

Tickets are availible at 20 dollars per booklet. However tickets are only at 10 dollars per booklet plus free rides if you buy from me by the end of this week.

- Service
- Speaker: Ulf Ekman (Rev. Dr.)
- 13 Nov 2004 (Sat) 7.30 pm
- 14 Nov 2004 (Sun) 10 am

Buses are provided. We will meet at Tampines MRT station at a specific time. Will post on blog the time sometime next week.

2004-10-31T23:10:00.000+08:00

All That I Want

2004-10-30T01:25:00.000+08:00

Wow... Planetshakers' "Running After You" has great songs! Was just listening to "All That I Want". Haha... Seems like no one comes to this blog anymore. (Feeling so lonely :P)

Today's the last day of school! And I finally finished that damn Flash competition at 2.30 pm. I also got my report book back today. Failed 2, Passed 8. It isn't up to my expectations as Mathematics pulled me down alot! Hopefully I can get to POA class next year. Today is also the last day our Founding Principal, Mrs Cecilia Lee, will be with us. She'll be transferred to another school. Hopefully the new principal will be Mr Homer Galistan. Hate that Mrs Oh, snatch our prefect room.

That's all for today. Update tomorrow. :P

ashleybspots

Chrissypoo out! Finally we vote for TALENT and not looks!

2004-10-29T21:02:00.000+08:00

Now able to watch Singapore Idol in peace because Chrissypoo (Christopher Michael Lee) is out! Finally Singapore is voting for Talent and not for Looks. I know he is handsome but he lacks one thing: He can sing, but cannot sing well. That's a no-no factor for Singapore Idol finalists. Surprised that he could still go on so far. Should be (this will insult his fans) teenage girls wasting their parents money to vote for him.

Haha...

So Sian... (Bored)

2004-10-29T07:01:00.000+08:00

Haiz... Now at school bus moblogging. Do you notice that when I moblog, I tend to write in "broken" English? Haha, because of space constraint... Jurong Birdpark was way BORING... To the school: get a life! :P after that, we waited at the entrance for one damn hour before that bus arrived. Another one came because the one which is supposed to come got involved in an accident. Cannot stand waiting. Anyway skipping Flash course later to watch the movie "the Grudge". Haha... Type more later.

ashleybspots
Moblogging

Boring! I'm very HARSH today...

2004-10-28T21:50:00.000+08:00

Seems like I've been ranting non-stop about the trip to Jurong Birdpark. But really, is Singapore so small that there are only 4 places to go? If they organise activities like Amazing-Race style game in the venue, then that's still ok. But today, we are supposed to tour the place ourselves and come back at a specific time. Same old birds right? As if the scientists found out a variety of cross-bred bird species. This is the second time I went to the birdpark this year and nothing changed. Its, in my extremely honest opinion, boring! Sorry Jae...

Worse still, we waited for like an hour for the bus to come. The original bus got involved in an accident or something, so they had to send a replacement. I hate waiting! The bus arrived around 1335 hours and we arrived school at 1435 hours. That's 1 hour late from the dismissal time! Then I saw my friend (sec 2 who also went to Jurong Birdpark but took the second bus) coming to school, she had already went home, bathed and changed! Imagine how late it was! I was planning to watch a movie at 1530!

In the end watched The Grudge at 1720. Its quite boring because the storyline is extremely predictable. But it still does scare me! Anyway because of this stupid bus and had no choice to catch the movie at this time, I missed part of Singapore Idol. And Olinda Cho!

Stupid! That's it, no more Jurong Birdpark or that bus operator anymore. Hmmph...

ashleybspots

NOT cooling down...

Science Centre? Bird park? Zoo? Oh C'mon!

2004-10-27T20:18:00.000+08:00

Is there really no interesting places to go in Singapore anymore? Every year, its the Science Centre, Bird Park or the Zoo. Come on! Get a life! What do we do there every year at the Bird Park or Zoo? See the same old stupid attractions lor. Oh, and to see whether there's a new addition to the family of orang utans at the Zoo? Haha... And for Science Centre, its that same stupid 4-section place or some Einstein talking in some lecture hall. Why am I saying this? Because it is like every year we are going to this places. Tomorrow the Sec 1 going to the Science Centre, Sec 2 Bird Park and Sec 3 Zoo...

Here are 5 places best for school outings:

Newater Visitor Plant (so that can smell the rubbish they throw and see how it is turned to water, so the spoilt brats can learn NOT to throw some stupid stuff into the bins.)
Outing to a haunted place by the Singapore Paranormal Investigators (yeah... you should know why. If you don't scroll down and see my profile :P)
Nightlife in Clark Quay! (don't necessary need to drink beer or go into bars, just to get an experience on how "high class executives and managers" can act like a monkey when they're drunk.
Malaysia! (Preferably a trip to Kualar Lumpur's Petronas Twin Towers... that is what I call an outing)
City Harvest Church! (You know, the Imagine Art Gallery on Level 1 in my church can serve to provide asthetic appreciation... can go swimming and golfing too...)

Low down: Yeah, I know that these are wild ideas but I feel that the school should think out of the box, instead of thinking straight (you know, outings = science centre, zoo, birdpark blah blah blah)...

Just a thought... (But I personally do hope 2 and 5 would come true :P)

ashleybspots

What romance? Haha...

2004-10-27T08:47:00.000+08:00

Now at school's media resource library doing some last minute work on that Flash project. The instructor is coming later at 2 to see our work and tell us what we can improve on. (Which I think my group got lots to improve) Haha John, I can tag! (Because this computer is not connected to the MOE server :P) Listening to Simple Plan's new CD "Still Not Getting Any". Its free for listening on the Internet yet 100% legal because its from MTV.com (got the link from the e-mail newsletter). I love Simple Plan :P

Yup, I was very mushy yesterday because I ate chocolates (that's why they send chocolates as gifts on Valentine's Day right) Haha...

Waiting for someone... When will she come to me?

2004-10-26T23:11:00.000+08:00

I know... I never wrote about romance stuff or anything mushy. But its loneliness. I must admit. I have a crush on *someone*. And its not from 2E4 or 2E5, so don't think so much. I will not disclose anything about her. So don't ask me about *someone*. God, I don't dare to tell her because I really don't know. I'm not an expert on romance, yet my cousin still asks me about love and relationship. So I just answer lor. And now, I'm stuck in this!

Anyway, today was rather boring. School consisted of just three periods: School of Rock, Recess and Agent Cody Banks. Get it? School of Rock and Agent Cody Banks are two movies. Yep, two movie screenings at school! Hope tomorrow gonna be better.

Haha...

ashleybspots

Crazy in Love

Not over it...

2004-10-25T13:00:00.000+08:00

It's been 2 days since the news about the multiplication of E18. My dedication for all E357 members is in the entry below. Anyway, I still cannot get over the news. I feel happy, yet also sad. Happy because it shows that our cell group is strong in God and we have done a great job in maintaining the cell group. Sad because, well, all of us has developed strong bonds with each other. That's why Jesus wants us to be called brothers and sisters right? Especially Peter. I'm going to miss him alot. Our cell groups will be having a combined cell meeting for the time being, but not for long. Its gonna be a different day/time for meetings or even worse, different services! I miss the time when we went to Sentosa together, or have services and prayer meetings together as E18. But now, its E18 and E357. Well, at least I still have Cecilia and John. At least.
Anyway, Xiao Ting will be the future cell group leader of E357 while for me, I'm aiming to be a cell group leader of E18. I know that's possible, because God is with me all the time. Amen!

Here's a dedication to both cell groups and to Sister Meiyan and Xiaoting. For members of E357, please read the entry below this. Can?

To E357 as a whole, although we are different cell groups now, we will still be united as one Church right? My brothers and sisters, thank you for your continuous advices and helping me to grow spiritually. Hopefully our outings will still be together.
To E18 as a whole, although we're in the same cell group, but most of us are not taking ownership of E18. From now on, lets take more ownership of E18! Although we have lesser people now, this will not stop us from making the cell group grow! Let us grow spiritually in Jesus Christ! Amen!

To Sister Meiyan, you are a great leader of E18. Although we have quarreled over some matters at times, we are still good friends. As you continue leading E18, may God bless you to let E18 grow!
To Xiaoting, your advices are really helpful for me to grow spiritually and physically. As you take leadership of E357, I believe that you will be able to lead a great cell group!

ashleybspots

May God bless E18 and E357

A Special Message

2004-10-24T23:21:00.000+08:00

The cell group E18 multiplied yesterday, forming E18 (i'm in) and E357. It seems like there's more members in E357 than E18, but the numbers are still equal in anyway in the Body of Christ. Amen? I will take more ownership of E18 from now on and strive to achieve my short-term goal as a cell group leader and finally as a church pastor.

My dear brothers and sisters in E357, thank you so much!

To Xiaoting, thank you for your spiritual advice. Continue your step as a potential Cell Group Leader and continue preaching. I have full faith in you. Continue growing in the Word and the Spirit.
To Peter, ever since the first day of me accepting Christ, you are the first person I've been in contact (except for my cousin and Sis Meiyan) with. You have helped me grown in my spirituality and I have also confided my personal thoughts to you. And I thank you for that. Continue growing spiritually!
To Yiwen, didn't really talk to you and get to know you well. But I do know that your carefree and friendly character really makes me feel at ease. Continue growing spiritually!
To Ying Ying, you look very quiet... but you're friendly and humorous! Haha... thanks alot! Continue growing spiritually!
To Pamela, also don't really know you well. But got to know you better on the church bus. Nice handphone you have ;) Continue growing spiritually!
To Cheesiang, basketball freak (same like your brother!) Haha... continue growing in spiritually!
To Wan Quan, at first I thought you're really quiet, but you are really friendly. Great to have you as a brother. Remember, continue growing spiritually.
To Samuel Chong, Eric and Gui Xiong, my church brothers and school brothers! Haha... although I'm the only JYSS student left, I'll make sure that more JYSS students come to my cell group! I value your friendships! Continue growing in Jesus!
To Wei Ming, glad to see you saved! Samuel invited you and you were fast in inviting your friends to church. Great evangelist! Haha, continue growing in Jesus!
To Yulan, haha you were hyper on the mrt just now (with us lar)! I don't really know you well but great to have your sister! Continue growing in Jesus.
To Yanhong, I don't really know you well but you seem to like smiling. Haha, grow in Jesus!
To Jasper, we are not only brothers in church, but also blood brothers (cousins at most). You are the person who invited me to church and I thank you alot. Without you, when I die, I'll be going down to hell! Haha... continue growing in Jesus!
To E357, welcome to your new cell group. Enjoy your new cell group!

OLINDA IN!

2004-10-22T21:14:00.000+08:00

Hey... Just finished watching Singapore Idol. Olinda's in! Haha... She's one of the best singers for the show, even the judges agree with that.

Got back the actual results today. Won't tell you much. Fail 3, Pass 7. Best subjects are Science (A1) and English (A2). Worse is Maths (duh... its F9). Overall total pass but its "less than average" (Almost all Cs). If you see my chatterbox, everyone's comforting me (thanks guys... hehe) Haiz... I don't know whether I have a chance to get to POA class. Is this enough information for everyone?

Stressed because of the Flash competition. Got to go to school at 9 tomorrow and finish up at least three-quarters. I'll be doing one background (the last one) later. Date due is Tuesday and the teacher only mentioned it yesterday!

Oh, and there's Cell Group tomorrow! Hallelujah! I don't know what's the good news that Sis Meiyan's gonna mention tomorrow. (Ok, I'm NOT that excited because I got some hints ;P) After that staying in Jasper's house and the next day, service! Inviting two seniors to church. Hope (no, they MUST) they come.

Do you like the music I put in the background? If not, please tag a message telling me to change. Coz I don't know what to change to. Just like the song (for a short while). Lyrics below.

Anyway, enjoy your night and God bless...

ashleybspots

Welcome to My Life

2004-10-22T14:08:00.000+08:00

Welcome to My Life
Simple Plan

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life

Exam results are not as expected...

2004-10-21T16:21:00.000+08:00

Just got back all my exam results. Here's a lowdown for the PAPERS ONLY:

English Language: 67.5% (45/60 for Paper I and 50/60 for Paper II)
Elementary Mathematics: 17.5% (!)
Chinese Language: 60%
Science: 74.5%
Geography: 46% (!)
History: 53%
Literature: 57%
Art: 59%
Home Economics: 60%
Design and Technology: 17% (!)

As you can see, my results are NOT as what I expected. It is really very bad. It'll be worse if its the exact total. I'm really very sad and worried.

God help me. Please!

ashleybspots

I am BLESSED by the power of the Lord

2004-10-21T01:16:00.000+08:00

You know what, immediately after I wrote the suicidal post, lots of things happened to me. No, not me trying to kill myself. Instead the Lord helped me! He sent Peter who called me and asked about my results. I told him and he told me to trust in the Lord and led me away from the topic of exam results. Derrick, another brother from another church, comforted me through MSN and Cecilia tagged a message on my tagboard. Thanks to all of you for cheering me up. Now I will get on with life and not worry about my results. Exams are just a barrier for me to pass through!

Dear Lord Jesus,
I thank you for blessing me in the most difficult of times. Even though sometimes your ways I cannot understand, I'll be running after you! I promise to get on with life and fufil your vision. I pray this in your name, AMEN!

I'M BLESSED!

ashleybspots
Blessed

disheartened. feel like killing myself.

2004-10-20T19:33:00.000+08:00

Let me admit something: From today, I will not be my usual self anymore. I am really very sad. All because of a f***king maths results. I don't even know why I have to take that subject. What is 16/100? And 18/100 for D&T? I let everyone down. Especially God. Am I stupid? Am I an idiot? Am I a bastard? I think I'm worse that a bastard or an idiot. I HATE MYSELF! I feel like killing myself and instantly leave this world. If you think I'm playing a joke, I'm not. I don't even care that I got the highest for English or a high grade for Science. I don't care. I cannot take anymore of this. I don't want to make myself sad anymore. I don't want to go to school and hear results anymore. I know that my parents are going to be sad and I will hate myself for that. I don't know. I really don't know why I'm so stupid.

anxious and scared...

2004-10-19T21:52:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's (this morning) entry was more joyous. Well, this night's entry is more gloomy. Why?

1. There's school tomorrow!
I don't know which kid or teacher loves school! If they do, call the newspapers!

2. I get to know my exam results tomorrow!
Now, which student love exams? No one right? Even more so, exam results are worse than the exams itself! Well, what if I do not get good marks for my subjects and cannot manage to get to my Accounting stream or even EXPRESS!!!

God help me! Please!

ashleybspots

Quick thoughts...

2004-10-19T01:47:00.000+08:00

Hey... I don't seem to be updating my blog for like, 2 days? Its not like I don't have interest in updating anymore, rather, I really don't know what to say! Haha... So let me try to jot down my thoughts ok?

Spent the day teaching my sister Vivy. Her exam's coming in two more weeks. But went to 7-Eleven to buy my lunch (microwave spaghetti and chicken sandwich) before teaching her. Oh, and I also downed a bottle of chicken essence. Why do I need so much energy? Oh, if you know my sister, you'll understand. :P

One more day before school starts. I'm extremely worried for my examination results. But I shall not spoil my day, rather night, worrying about my results.

Yesterday's service was great. Pastor Kong preached about the 5 truths of money. It seems like he's preaching the infamous prosperity gospel. But he's not. He ended the sermon with money can enable you to do anything but balance is important as money cannot buy love, peace, joy and hope.

Oh, and I would like to congratulate Derrick (Hope Singapore), Diana (City Harvest) and Cheryl (City Harvest) and would like to welcome them with open arms to the family of God! But not so happy because Bro Jason snatched my "business" away from me! I was planning to invite Diana and Cheryl to church! Anyway, shall invite them to the Family Carnival in Singapore Indoor Stadium (Cheryl's excited about it and oh, stop asking me questions like where should you put your hands when you pray). Sorry brother (anyway, thanks hor, save my trouble save my time asking! LOL!) Haha... Speaking of inviting, there's still 10 more people on my invite list I'm going to invite. Pray God all of them will come. Bro, help me ask Zheng Ming and Jon ok?

My website (www.bluespots.shyper.com) is still not ready. It is a photography website (I love nature photography) but I still can't find a suitable design! Another problem is that I cannot find the camera software for my computer! Oh no! :(

And to the Singapore Paranormal Investigators: Why is there no more outings? I'm so bored!

Wow! Free dental checkup. Watching the recorded version of Singapore Tonight on Channel NewsAsia (You know I'm a lame guy). But sorry, no interest! Haha... ;P

Guess that's long enough for tonight's entry ya? Have a great night and God bless!

ashleybspots

The longest entry yet...

stupid song...

2004-10-16T13:16:00.000+08:00

After hearing the song "Learn Chinese" by Jin, I was totally angered! Some Chinese-Americans in his website forums commented that they were "proud to be Chinese after hearing this song". I say bullshit!

The Chinese spoken in this song is not Chinese, its Cantonese. Well, despite their similarities, Cantonese is NOT Chinese! Did you know that most Hong Kongers (where Cantonese is their main language) cannot speak a word of Chinese because of their accent?

The mistake most Americans make is that when they hear Chinese, they think of Cantonese. Its like, so UNFAIR!!!
When will discrimintation stop?

ashleybspots

OLINDA AND MAIA IN!!!

2004-10-15T22:17:00.000+08:00

Haha... Watched Singapore Idol just now... Olinda and Maia got in! Voted once for Maia and twice for Olinda... Now using computer like siao! Tomorrow can go cell group and Sunday service! So happy!

ashleybspots

EXAMS OVER!!!

2004-10-15T13:23:00.000+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVER!!! Finally, I can play as much as I want (till the results come...) Meanwhile, I'll just play play and play! Haha... Have not been updating because of exam, so I'll be updating lots here so watch out for it. Maybe even 3-4 times a day!!!

ashleybspots

2004-10-14T20:50:00.000+08:00

Oli, you rock! SINGAPORE IDOL

Moblogging

2004-10-10T16:31:00.000+08:00

Just finished tuition. Now walking to some TCM shop... A Malay man just walked up to me and asked me whether he could read the newspaper I just brought. This has really set me thinking... Why do other races discriminate Malays, especially in USA. It's really very unfair for them, even so lots did not do anything wrong. Feel bad for them... Anywa, arrived at the shop... Cya

As it gets nearer (and very near)...

2004-10-10T13:21:00.000+08:00

Hey...

Sorry for not saying much for yesterday's entry. I was really busy with studying! Tomorrow's the Day One but I've got Him by my side! Today will be spent having tuition and doing art prep work. I've decided on impressionism (Nature Landscapes) with snow-capped mountains as my main image. Hmmm.... Can picture it on my mind already! After that, I'll read through the Semester One topics for Geography (paper tomorrow!). And, remind me to bring my Chinese dictionary for the Chinese Compo paper tomorrow!

I'm telling myself to relax and take this week as any other week, only with added revision. And best of all, no lesson! Haha... after this, I can play and chill out all I want! Maybe go to Kualar Lumpur in Malaysia. Can't take domestic flights though, because I don't live in Malaysia! But the bus fare from Singapore (its NOT part of Malaysia) is only about SGD 30? Haha... Let's leave this thoughts aside till Friday at 12 noon... Study first!

Haha... Is this entry long enough for you? Cya...

ashleybspots

Tired...

2004-10-09T20:15:00.000+08:00

Finally able to post! Haha...

Added a new song today called Running After You. Lyrics can be found at the last post before this. Quality isn't so good coz I compressed the file. Enjoy!

Studied for 2 hours (Geography 1.5 hours and Chinese Functional Writing 0.5 hours). Maybe going to study for an hour more later at 9.30 (if my headache gets better). That's all for today coz I'm really tired. Cya...

ashleybspots

Planet Shakers- Running after You

2004-10-09T13:27:00.000+08:00

Yeah Yeah! (X4)
Your Word is a light unto my path
Your Love guides me through my darkest night
And even though sometimes Your ways
I cannot understand
I’ll never walk away because my future’s
In Your hands
I don’t care what people will say
I’m running after You
I won’t turn back and go their way
Coz I’m running after You
No matter what may come my way
I’m running after you
It’s You I’m following today
I’m running after You
Yeah Yeah! (X4)
Your word...
Your Word is a light unto my path
Your Love guides me through my darkest night
And even though sometimes Your ways
I cannot understand
I’ll never walk away because my future’s
In Your hands
I don’t care what people will say
I’m running after You
I won’t turn back and go their way
Coz I’m running after You
No matter what may come my way
I’m running after you
It’s You I’m following today
I’m running after You,
I’m running after You (X2)
I don’t care what people will say
I’m running after You
I won’t turn back and go their way
Coz I’m running after You
No matter what may come my way
I’m running after you
It’s You I’m following today (X2)
I'm running after You
Yeah, Yeah (X4)
I'm running after You!

An Exam Prayer!

2004-10-08T21:46:00.000+08:00

Hey everyone... Nothing much happened today but I went home with a whole stack of books coz the cupboards were to be cleared out before the examinations. Spending the weekend at home studying! I'm determined to do my very best to glorify the One above =). Oh, and thanks to those who prayed for me:

Sis Meiyan, my cell group leader
Bro Jason, my ex-cell group leader
E18, my cell group
Especially to Peter, XiaoTing, Cecilia (Will be praying for u guys too :D)

I felt the power of God come over me like electricity as you prayed. Making sure I'll do my best and score in all my subjects!

For the rest, I'm praying for all of you! ;) God blesses!

ashleybspots

Mugging, Mugging and Mugging!

2004-10-07T22:27:00.000+08:00

This time finally can get some work done. Tomorrow determined to clock in 5 studying hours (including rest). But then tomorrow got 2 Ho period... very sian. Always pick on people one... Anyway, today's Singapore Idol was, well, not good enough. They did not enough "skills" to sing rock n roll! But Chrissypoo (Christopher Michael Lee) wasn't so bad. Olinda, u let me down girl! ='( Do better next time! Anyway still voted for Olinda... That's all for today... See ya guys later...

ashleybspots

This entry is dedicated to God...

2004-10-06T19:41:00.000+08:00

Hi all... Taking a break from studying today! (Not really taking a break, doing History and Science later...) This entry is dedicated to God, who sits in the heavens listening to inner cries of His children.
(I'm not a religious person but I just got this sudden urge to write this post)

Anyways, before PE today, the sky was overcast and it was going to rain very soon (I could smell rain). PE teacher kept praying for the rain to stop. When the bell rang, the sky was sunny and there was no sign of rain anywhere! This shows that miracles DO happen! Hallelujah! God is great, all powerful, but he listens to the prayers of a little person crying out in the dark! This reminds me of when I was in the dark (whether to give my missions fund or not, as I was bankrupt). I was praying to God to give me an amount, instead he gave me a verse:

When they went, they went toward any of the four directions; they did not turn aside as they went, but followed in the direction the head was facing. They did not turn aside as they went.
Ezekiel 10:11

God really has a plan, a purpose for me to give me such a verse. He knew my family's financial background and did not give me an exact amount. Upon discussion with my dad, he said that I could donate $20 to the Missions Fund! That was three months ago...

This exam, I am putting full trust on Him for passing. I'm gonna beat the 20 study hours required by CHC and reach to 30 hours this week!

Let me end this entry off with a prayer:

Dear Lord Jesus,
I thank you for what you've done for me. I feel the pain when you died on the cross to cover our sins with Your blood. I place my full trust on You for passing my final year exam and I know you will never ever let me down. You're so high above, yet you listen our inner cries of help. I love you with all my heart, all my soul and all my mind. I pray this in your name, Amen.

science mock test!!!

2004-10-05T16:44:00.000+08:00

Blogging early today as I have tuition later in the evening... Exams are really near and I'm extremely nervous. Tomorrow there will be a mock exam for Science, and I am aiming to score! Science is the subject this year that has never let me down (meaning, best subject for the year). Going to start revising str8 away after blogging...

Oh and I added a new song called, My Source, by City Harvest Church. Hope you guys like it!

ashleybspots

PS/ By the way, my website is going to be ready very soon: www.bluespots.shyper.com!

English = No confidence! :(

2004-10-04T20:32:00.000+08:00

Yay... I can finally login to the system! Today's English exam totally went down the drain. First off, I didn't know what to write for Paper 1, so I chose the simplest. But I don't know whether I wrote out of point. Second, for Paper 2, the cloze passage was so tough! I couldn't even understand what the story meant! Hopefully my prayers will work!

Anyway, today did a Science mock paper in the afternoon. Couldn't concentrate and in the end got only 35 marks (upon 100!). Haiz... back to the mindmapping room! Haha... Anyway tomorrow got tuition and I'm planning to do Maths, my weakest subject, there and ask my teacher lots of questions! Hahaha...

Oh, and I found this beautiful verse from the Bible in Darlene Zschech's "The Kiss of Heaven":

Christ is the one through whom God created everything in Heaven and earth.
He made the things we see and the things we can't see-
Kings, kingdoms, rulers and authorities
Everything has been created through Him and for Him.
He existed before everything else began, and He holds all creation together.
- Colossians 1:16-17

Signing off now. Cya...

ashleybspots

Sunday = Sundae?

2004-10-03T20:09:00.000+08:00

The title was just a attention grabber... Anyway, today the devil tried to disrupt my life and my mentality. Thank God He helped me throughout the incident. Shall not mention about it though... unless you know lah.

Writing this boring entry before going to the toilet to bathe. Nothing much (except for that incident) happened today. Just wasted a 150 points on a cheeseburger for my sister so as to shut her up and have a peaceful meal in the... Kopitiam! (haha... lame)

Tomorrow English and CME exam! Both are "okay" subjects to me, so I'm not so nervous. But, still have to revise yar... Haha... shall update tomorrow. Cya...

ashleybspots

Music...

2004-10-02T01:31:00.000+08:00

1 October 2004 (Friday)

Was happy that the two semi-finalists I voted was not eliminated! Anyway, still quite sad that Jessea was eliminated, cos her singing not too bad... English exam just 2 days away and tomorrow I'm planning to wake up and start memorizing/studying for 1) format for formal letter and 2) summary writing. Then, I'll do a practise paper just to see how I fare. My expectations for English is quite high so I'm pressurising myself. If I don't pressurise myself, I won't do well! So, I'm stuck! My sister's birthday is tomorrow but I have not bought a present for her yet... tomorrow planning to drop by the 7-Eleven after cell group meeting to buy her a bar of chocolates. I'm "quite" broke now.

For those in 1N1/1N2 who are nominated to be a prefect, congratulations! I will help you all in completing the nomination form on Monday (recess).

Going to sleep now.

ashleybspots

while waiting...

2004-09-30T19:57:00.000+08:00

Now waiting for the Singapore Idol (Spectacular I- Live!) to start... cannot wait! OLINDA CHO ROXS!!! Vote for her arh... Hahaz...

Anyway, was in school till 4, 5 plus because I had detention duty and the students there were so... I really don't know how to express their behavior in words. They are basically (in three words): cunning, stubborn and playful... Tomorrow's a short day but I have a supplementary mathematics lesson after school for 2 hours!

Update later... Singapore Idol start liao... VOTE FOR OLINDA CHO!!!

ashleybspots

hitting the BOOKS!!!

2004-09-29T22:39:00.000+08:00

5 more days to EL paper and 1 wk 5 dys to the main exams week! Mugging, as per normal, but two more weeks of "hell" and finally after that, "heaven" (that's just an expression...)! Just finished (rather, just finished for the day :P) my revision notes for Maths and its so hard to type and draw on the computer! But if I write by hand, it'll be slower and more painful... Crap! But I'm feeling hyper today so don't mind my lame jokes.

Oh, and 1N2 is making me angry AGAIN!!! After the flag-raising, I was checking their badges and 2 people (1 as per normal) did not bring. I told them to buy the badges and they just went off to the direction of the bookshop but did not buy at all. Don't think I never see you all... Tomorrow I shall personally escort the student(s) whom do not bring their badges. Oh, and all of you are very rude to me and the other prefects as well. Show some respect can? Especially Frederick...

(On a personal note, 2E4 would like to apologise to Mr. Ong for the event that happened just now. Classified)

ashleybspots

nothing much... only that my com's infected...

2004-09-28T19:17:00.000+08:00

Hey... I'm finally up on the net! Yesterday found out that my computer's infected with a virus. So, I had to reset (yes reset as in reformat my hard disk and reinstall Windows XP) my whole computer. So now all my files, pics included, are lost! Oh... how I hate trusting the computer so much... they break down and gone are your memories... LOL :D

Now about school... Now almost everyone's blogging! Yay... finally can get to see their thoughts and feelings :P... Helped Cheryl configure her template... she's bad at html (haha... joking)... But the exams are only 1 week 6 days away! That's sooo near! I have started serious mugging and planning on going to tuition on Friday evening and Sunday morning (Sat has CG meeting... so cannot)...

Oh... the anti-virus software updater's telling me to reboot... see ya later! :P

ashleybspots

the tears of God

2004-09-26T21:50:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I feel that God has a purpose for me here on this Earth... Some of you may be rolling your eyes and say "Not that again..." But, honestly, its true. Let me tell you some things I hardly tell anyone (well partly because the blog does not have any personal information about me... LOL :D) God performed the 1st miracle on me when I was born. When I was born, I lost a lot of blood and was in the ICU for like, a few months. Doctors told my parents that I may die anytime. But miraculously, I survived! But the recent miracle that happened to me was only yesterday! During CG meeting yesterday, while we were singing the song "One Desire", I cried... tears just flowed out of my eyes uncontrollably. Then we prayed, but I couldn't pray because I was crying and crying! Thoughts of how Christ died for us on the Cross and how God helped me in life just made my cry! When I recovered, I found my whole body trembling, like an electric shock had just came over me... I felt free after that... free from my sins. There and then, I knew that I had a godly experience. Amen!

ashleybspots

i want to study... but...

2004-09-25T23:17:00.000+08:00

I really want to study! But whenever I open a book and try to study... I would be tempted to do something else (the computer is just infront of me...) For example, before CGM just now, I was planning to clock in 2 hours of Geography revision, but I did not even do it (not even hitting a single book!) I feel so bad... but then... if I study at somewhere else, I will also be distracted! I really confused but still determined to clock in at least 25 hours of study time next week...

Just added a tagboard, so tag all you want. Just found out that Brother Jason has a blog! (He's my church brother and school teacher) But this will not be my priority... studying is.... so back to the mugfloor

ashleybspots

2004-09-24T19:06:00.000+08:00

Wow... I did not blog for quite a long time already! Exams are round the corner but I still seem that I cannot concentrate at all... Today we had to pass up all the Chinese homework by 1. So everyone was rushing cos if we don't pass up, we have to stay back after school and write a 500-word essay on Monday! I hate the chinese rep for promising her that we have to pass up by today... idiotic person... (OKOK, the Chinese rep is me... haha)

ashleybspots

2004-09-17T17:19:00.000+08:00

Today after school found out that the prefects room at the Admin block is now shifted to a small, pathetic cca room! It far too much! The room is only a pathetic square with one pathetic fucking fan! There is only space for 5 people!

I basically spend most of my time after school in the old prefects room. We study there, share things together there and even sleep there! And we can hold the entire prefectorial board meeting at the old prefects room! And now, at this pathetic cca room, we can't even do anything there. The heads of the school basically treat us like DIRT! Without prefects, would there be people handling discipline and welfare in school? Try, DISCOM, to have 1 month without prefects and see what would happen.

Heard the old prefects room is for the new vice principal. Why does the school need TWO vice-principals? Following the latest trend eh... That is so damn stupid.

ashleybspots

Test Entry from mobile phone

2004-09-15T22:49:00.000+08:00

Hey... I'm testing out this entry from my mobile phone...

2004-09-15T22:19:00.000+08:00

Here's a picture taken during a service in my church... very spiritual!

serious studying now...

2004-09-15T22:06:00.000+08:00

The streaming exams are just a few weeks (less than a month!) ahead! I'd better start mugging now or else... I won't be able to go to the class I desire next year (Principles of Accounts or Accounting class). My mathematics got to improve lots, english, chinese and science not so much of a problem though. Today went to the 7-Eleven to buy 8Days, not so interesting this week... At night studied history, science, then history again. Got a history test tomorrow, so I'm pretty worried. But confident, because I could memorised most of the facts (well, except for the dates, I'm bad at that ;) ) Packed up my room... looking better now, coz removed all the redundant materials. Haha...

ashleybspot

Supermarket, pharmancy and a 7-Eleven store- Right beside my doorstep!

2004-09-14T21:31:00.000+08:00

Wow... just went to the Tampines Central Community Centre right beside my flat! There's a supermarket, pharmancy and a 7-Eleven store there! More shops are coming soon... So I'll wait and see what kind of shops are opening. The design of the centre is nice too. I don't have a picture to show you now...

Life's boring

2004-09-14T14:22:00.000+08:00

Sometimes feel that life is really very boring. Today's the first day of Term 4 and so many things happen, both good and bad. Had a terrible headache after recess and cannot concentrate. Luckily my art teacher extended the deadline for the holiday homework till tomorrow, if not I'll be dead... Hehe ;) Today's English diagnostic test was pretty easy, but I'm still not confident that I could score well. During the test, my teacher was correcting a message written on the board. The writer wrote "dateline" instead of "deadline" and wrote a message saying "Its deadline. You're dead if you don't pass up by that date." At least she still got her sense of humor. Oh, my other blog (bluepinion) isn't ready yet, I'm still deciding (and censoring) the topics. So watch out for updates! God bless.

ashleybspot

intro...

2004-09-09T17:53:00.000+08:00

Hello and welcome to my blog! This is one of two blogs I have and this blog is for my posting events happening in my life. All posts tell my feeling for the day and some "uncensored" words may appear. Well, I'm a student but moonlight (bad word to use, should be "also working as") as a paranormal investigator in SPI. Enjoy my post! God bless...

ashleybspots

bluespotted!

2005....

Glorious times over?

Thoughts...

Is it Determination?

I'm busy... FINALLY

Releasing my thoughts...

Feeling Better Now...

In Times Square, KL

At KLCC, Malaysia

Must miss me!

Bad FIRST IMPRESSION

Blessed Sunday!

Reach out with Love...

God is truly the same yesterday, today and forevermore...

Thanks for praying!

I need a MIRACLE...

I'm sick.

Against Antinomianism!

Shutter Two Times In A Row...

It's All Part of Discipleship...

New Template, New Beginning and a Whole New Walk with God...

I'm trusting the Lord...

SINGAPORE IDOL BEAUTY CONTEST ARH?

New mobile phone... Grandmom got hospitalised...

Can You Feel the Power of Love?

Over It

Sad. Crying.

The Calling. MY CALLING!

Powerful. Impactful. BIG

1 More Day to Carnival by the Bay...

4 Days to Celebration By the Bay

Happy Bdae Dad!

Countdown: 6 Days to Celebration By the Bay

On Fire for the Living God!

Back...

How I Love To Sing About You...

Yesterday was terrible...

Like My Own

Unlimited Time... 2 months?

Just here to Pray...

Holidays ARE boring...

All That I Want

Chrissypoo out! Finally we vote for TALENT and not looks!

So Sian... (Bored)

Boring! I'm very HARSH today...

Science Centre? Bird park? Zoo? Oh C'mon!

What romance? Haha...

Waiting for *someone*... When will she come to me?

Not over it...

A Special Message

OLINDA IN!

Welcome to My Life

Exam results are not as expected...

I am BLESSED by the power of the Lord

disheartened. feel like killing myself.

anxious and scared...

Quick thoughts...

stupid song...

OLINDA AND MAIA IN!!!

EXAMS OVER!!!

Moblogging

As it gets nearer (and very near)...

Tired...

Planet Shakers- Running after You

An Exam Prayer!

Mugging, Mugging and Mugging!

This entry is dedicated to God...

science mock test!!!

English = No confidence! :(

Sunday = Sundae?

Music...

while waiting...

hitting the BOOKS!!!

nothing much... only that my com's infected...

the tears of God

i want to study... but...

Test Entry from mobile phone

serious studying now...

Supermarket, pharmancy and a 7-Eleven store- Right beside my doorstep!

Waiting for someone... When will she come to me?